Why am I here?
From this question, for me, follow all the others. Most urgently, what should I be doing? NOW.
A double answer follows that.
We should all be doing what we feel good about, which means we must find some pleasure in it, satisfaction, growth and achievment. We can enjoy what we do, and we will then want to get on with it and may do it well. No point in half doing anything. What we do must have meaning for us, value.
As social animals that seems to me to mean doing what is valued by at least some others, those who understand what you are about. You cannot please everyone, some may appreciate your efforts later, some may denigrate your activities, but meanwhile share and press on.
If you are lucky, and what you do is sufficiently valued, then there will be people and organisations prepared to pay you to do it, great. But some important, necessary work, slips through the cracks of how our society and much of the world is now organised. Overwhelming weight is presently placed on 'the market' and the commercialisation of most activities. It can be necessary to go 'against the grain' of these pressures.
All who have ever worked with wood will know this throws up real difficulties, with saw or chisel following an unwanted path. In the real world those with an independent income, who can still be bothered, may sidestep the earthy fact you need income to survive, eat, sleep warm, and care for dependents and so on. Most of us cannot but need to be intensely careful about our compromising, our accomodating to the grain of the hard world, or out goes baby with the bathwater.
It can be a difficult balancing act, but if you persist with what you do not feel is worthwhile in your heart, you are tossing your life away as just a means to an end, some one else's end, when it is your ends that matter, that is the end in itself. To a great degree, you are what you do, you define yourself in your actions and become the fruit of your own potential.
Glorious words and sentiments eh!?
But they can all too often lead you to penury, derision and disillusion. For every successful achiever in any field a bunch of unlucky failures may be moodily sour at life's tricks.
Well then for myself it is the old song about "pick yourself up, dust yourself down and start all over again." Get pissed first perhaps too, that can briefly help with the hurt.
So now I find I AM AN ATHEIST ON A MISSION FROM GOD.
One day I will get around to explaing that paradox, if you ever saw 'The Blues Brothers' film you might have an insight, good luck with it.
My purpose is to defy all those who claim there are no health implications from certain widely used and extremely popular electromagnetic radiofrequency technologies and wizard gadgetry. I am not alone in this rather unpopular, unpaid, and much derided crusade. We have intensive scientific backing, much truth few bucks.
Crusade? Well according to my internet dictionary, the third meaning, and leaving religion out of it, is:
“any vigorous, aggressive movement for the defense or advancement of an idea, cause, etc.: eg. a crusade against child abuse”.
